Hais, today in school, XiaoRui was not feeling well..
I bring her to sick bay which was my first time seeing
it how it look like as i never been before since primary
school. Then, she look sooooo weak that she was usually
laughing loudly but so quiet today. Before going to recess
which was during HomeEC, i lost a pen that i got from Keith.
Last friday, because i ask him to lend me a pen, and i joke
with hime said,' gimme arhs', but he took it seriously and
tell me,'take lah, take lah.' After the period i was going to give
him back the pen, but he say give u lah... Haiiyoo.
After school, me, Tab, Xiaorui and Enning went to KFC together
with Bronson, kenton and Weiteng. We were laughing while
eating as the boys were playing with the remaining food and
joking. Bronson they all then throw ice on each other...
So funny there, just like the whole KFC only filled with our
laughter and Xiaorui's headache seems to be getting better.
Finish eating and the boys went home, so we all went to basement.
I over spend today... I went to buy the famous amous cookies.
Actually i wanted to buy those without any chocolate or nuts, which
was plain on it cause i dont like sweet stuff. But they dont seems to
be selling any, so i buy the Chocolate without nuts one. I really really
regretted from buying it because it was toooo sweet that my throat
seems to be pain.I know from the beginning that this would happen,
but the aroma or the cookies really tempt others to buy it. HAHA.
We then went to the B2, where near car park there and sit.
We then chatting over there till around 5plus then go home.
I went to Tabitha's house and use computer with her.
We went youtube and watch funny videos, then to blogshop
and viewing clothes from shops, and decided on the one
we buying. I am still not comfirm the price, but i will try to save as
much as i can to buy the clothe. The mordels representing the
companies' shops were all so pretty lors, then the clothes they wearing
look so nice and fit on them... SO ENVY LORS!
I went home and almost slipped a few times because the maid
was mopping the floor..=.= luckily never really fell, if not damn unlucky.
I on my laptop so that i can watch Trinity Blood, but same problems
came out like yesterday.So i only manage to watch 2 episodes today,
or i already finish 2 days ago.. Sad.
Ok. i will stop here now. Goin to pack my bed and bag before i sleep later,
or i dont have enough time to continue playing computer. ^.^
ohhyah. Btw, the time on the blog post was not really accurate,
so now is 12.47 before i going to
post.. Byebye!
My thoughts, what i really want. Sunday, September 28, 2008 1:48 AM
I simply do not want to sleep or sleep when
i will doze off immediately when i am lying
on my bed. Just staring into the space will
only caused me to be miserable. Whenever
i closed my eyes, i will only remind me of
Band. The only thing that i dont like in my life.
I have totally no interest in it, but i cant quit
too. My heart will only felt sad, my mind will
only have thousands or even infinity numbers
of 'I dont want to go Band'. But even those
thoughts appear every night before i am
going to sleep, nothing difference will change.
Maybe in this world, nobody will truly know
what i am thinking, what i really want as i dont
even know it myself. I might be laughing everytime,
but there are times i have thought that those
smiles on my face will only be fake, just like
someone wearing a mask to hide themself.
There are times i laugh, i smile, but i just cant
satisfied myself at night, that i really want to quit.
I even thought of dying before. But there is many
many things i have not done, and i dont even
have the courage to committe suiside. I really hate
myself for being such a stupid person making the
wrong choice for making this decision to join band.
I really regret. I tried to quit before, but failed. At
that moment when i know i was tied to this CCA, i
really went to hurt myself with my instrument and
even have the thought to jump down from outside
the music room. I was really desperate till now also,
just one more chance for me to quit, or even go back
to time. Just free me from it. I played everytime in
school with others just to forget about all the things,
but i will always remember very clearly what happen
that day. I watched anime since P5, but now i watched
more and more just to supress those problems inside
myself just to forget everything.. What will happen
if i died? Will people cried for me, or feel sad?
Ok,Today, nothing much happen but i finished D-gray man
yesterday. But the last episode will be out next week
which make me very excited. I wont die before i watch
it, i told myself. Then, i starting a new show yesterday
and finished it too.. So today i watching a new one, but too
bad cant cleared by today as the website said i have watched
more than the maximun time for the website, so i have to
wait. Hais. just too bad, i going to check out more about the
websites. BYEBYE. Goodnights.
WOOHOOO! Thursday, September 25, 2008 9:13 PM
WOW! 3 days i never came and post my blog. Haha. i have been chionging my D-gray man. And now left a few more episodes to go!! OMG. I just simply cant control myself from being high like that when the main character is put... Haha.
But i came to blog now cause i am waiting for de episode to load. So i am goin to post quite short today. Hais. The English and chinese compo was quite difficult sia... I even wrote my english compo till i am going to fall asleep lors.. Luckily there were more than enough time for me to finish both english and chinese cause i am writing again.
Then, we suspected Rena for scolding us in blog. I have no rights to scold the person who wrote it, but i wont forgive that person. Then, we confessed to Rena asking her through sms. And in the ended up all of us were quarreling in smses, blogging and even treat her as transparent. Even if she was not the one who done it, but we just dont like her for some reasons. As i treated her as friend last time but she jus make me felt more and more ..... Dont know how to phrase it, but is just kind feelings.
Stupid Thina.. yesterday played with him ended up my hand was cut by his pen. Then i cant write caused the pen keep touching the wound. Worst of all is i cant even wash hair and tie my hair properly... =.= Then, syaqila asked me about my home thingy. She thought i will be sad when mentioning it, but i wont cause i have no feelings for my bio parents. The impression i have for them is almost less then 5% to me. At night, my stupid sister at last came home after leaving home for almost 3 weeks. And asked me whether i got missed her during that time. OFCOURSED not. as long i have my computer i dont even think about her :D
Today, i was abit pissed off xiaorui they all run off. I cant find them, and i just went back to class and get my bag after knowing there is no self-study today. Then i didnt join them to jurong point caused i am quite angry and tired, so i just went home. I was watching D-grayman today too. But i was tired that i watched until i fall asleep till 5 and wake up. Hmmmm.. i am going back to watch anime. i'll blog either tomorrow of next time. Cause i am going to finish it if can by today :D
ByeBye!
Ouhhh... Sunday, September 21, 2008 11:16 PM
HAHA! Yesterday was a tired day for me!
But first, Wish Nicola HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
Congrates! Omaydatoh!
Yesterday forget to blog and said to her as
i fall asleep while watching anime... Too tired. Yesterday went to bugis with Nicola to shop,
and take it as celebrating her 13th Birthday.
We went to bugis street and nicola bought a new
bag. Same as my school bag, but in white. And i
also bought a black colour top. Nicola buy the same
design as mine,only different is that
hers was in pink.
Then i actually looking for skinnies,
buy the New Future's were to expensive.It cost $29
for one. So i decided to go to City Hall there buy.
But before we went there, we have our lunch as well
as my first meal for the day. We went to the Food
Junction and eat, while eating we were chatting about
our school life since out school was different. She was
in FuHua while i am in BoonLay sec. I was fun talking
and enjoying the process of knowing what happen in both
our school. It was jus like exchanging present, knowing
what we have given each other as we were exchanging
our school life knowing what happen.
After eating, we proceed to the MRT station to take
train to City Hall. It was only a station away so it did not
used up alot of time. I called Shronn to ask her to guard me
go as i accompanied here to there last time, so she know the way.
While our way to Penisular where the skinnies were sold, i saw
the people dressing in city was kind of different to people dress in
town area. They were dressing in a more formal and neater way,
maybe there is many big shopping centre nearby, so they wear in
nicer clothing. And town area have smaller shopping like Jurong Point,
Jurong Entertainment or Imm, that make us wear in a more casual way.
Walking and sweating and reached the destination at last!!!
The shop smell of many indian people's smell. Those perfume
or other thing that make them have the smell. No offence to
Indian people, but i am slightly sensitive to those smell. But lucky
Thina who sit beside me in class dont have those kind of smell,
but only boys sweating smell. :C I choosed White and black
skinnies and went to changing room try. The first time i try, i felt
so shame and idiot to myself. I forgotten to took off my sneakers
and ended up struggling inside de changing room to force my leg out of it. Luckily is a black skinny, or dirtied it i dont know how reply the shopkeeper.
Lucky i went to Penisular buy skinnies which was 2 for $15. Althought
is almost half price of New Future' skinnies, but the Brand Penisular
can be compete with it, as the brand was almost the same good. :D
So i left $10.50 and Nicola left $10 plus too. And we decided to went
back to Bugis and buy one more top. I bought a top similar to the one
i bought previously. Only difference is in purple and long sleeves.
Then, we leave bugis. I spent exactly total of $55 on clothing, luckily
i did not over spent as i only brought $70 with me yesterday. And i
spent total of $69.50 for the whole day.( Excluding the $1.05 i spent
in arcade's basketball while waiting for nicola) She passed me the
Chocolate cake for her birthday, and say goodbye to each other.
Although i dont really like and enjoy sweet stuff, but for appreciating,
i should finish the cake. And i drink alot of water while eating. But thanks for the cake, it was delicious despite it is sweet. Haha.
I reached home and the first thing i did was tried the clothes with my skinnies. I look in the mirror and the only thing that comes to my mind was that maybe ishould only wear it when going to City area or relatives house, cus the tops look too mature on me when i wear it. Can say too mature or can say that it look formal... But actually i felt i look alot more fatter on it!
But never mind, i will try harder to slim down more.Today, i spent my whole day inside my room until my aunt and cousin come and take over my room!! My only comfortable place was taken~~ They are goin to stay at my house for a few days until my uncle came back from oversea to work. Therefore, this week i will be super tired as my cousin who study in my pri school will be making a rukus in the morning for wanting to sleep more, and the noise will caused the baby cousin to awake from sleep and keep crying. ALL THIS NOISE WILL MAKE ME LOSE TIME SLEEPING BEFORE I GO SCHOOL! Same thing happen that time. I jus want to sleep 10mins more before i wake up, but my baby cousin keep crying non-stop. Hais.. Today i spent my whole day watching anime. I started on another show, D-Grayman, which was my no.63 show which i am goin to complete less than 2 weeks. But it was usual for me to watch anime everytime, so all my friends and family members was use to it and know what i am going to do when i on computer. Thats why mooxin, shiying, my sis and shaoquan caledl me animefreak. But to me, watching anime was not only to sastified myself, but i also learnt alot of things from it. I finish a show called Spice and Wolf today, i love the 4 sentences from the opening song. It was really meaningful to me. it says: If I'm just together with you. If the world that I have dreamed of Exists somewhere that is not here Then shall we go and search for it? To the other side of the wind. Those sentence let me felt like people will willing to do anything to find there dreams, with companions, even to the other side or the world. The sentences sank into my heart and let me remember it.
I was blogging just now and quarreled with my mom for some silly problems happened this afternoon. I cried when she saied to me that, "GO BACK TO YOUR OWN HOME IF YOU NOT HAPPY THEN!" This sentence certainly hurt me alot. Jus because the parent i am living with now was not my biological parents, we have no blood related to each other. But i treated them like my own, biological parents as they have been living with me and my sister since i am less than 1 years old. So she scolded me to go back my own home really hurt me alot. I dont have any home to go back too. I went to my room cried, i went to toilet washed my face too. And think all this thing over and over again, and my heart was simply hurting alot. Although this sentence was not said out the first time, when my sister quarreled with them, and said it out. The quarrel was not concearning me, but whenever i heard it i felt sadand cried as just becaused we are not a real blood-related family, doesnt mean this type of words can be said out.
Forget about it, the more i think the more depressed i am. I am feeling so hungry now. I spend my whole day on anime and completely forgotten about my dinner.. Hais, i left less than an hour before i went to bed for my homework. Got to go, byebye
WOOOTS! Friday, September 19, 2008 10:48 PM
TODAY have a hard time bring all my books home. I carry the books as the paper bag string broke in school!! Then we went to jp to walk and talk and drink my favourite Lychee Red Tea! In the toilet
we took photo together. And you know ehat XiaoRui say??
She say i look more and more like with Tabitha.
I went to take a look in the photo and realised that
we really look like each other. Other than being said i
look like Joanna from shao Quan and let me thinks so,
is my face really so common to look like any peoples... =.=
And XiaoRui, Tabitha, Moo Xin and En Ning went to look for Phoebe's bdae presents. Then, i realised that Nicole Bdae was also tomorrow. I found shop by shop and at last i found the present i giving her. Hais.. walk until my leg very tired. When me and Tabitha went to the 7-11, i actually want to buy slurpy, but i jus need 10 cents more. So unlucky! we also went to the playground after that. We were laughing
and i told Harold that if he come down and play
Tabitha will treat him drink slurpy. But actually we both
dont have any money left! HAHA. He come down and realised
he wad being cheated by us and took her EZ-link card and
show to Jon they all at 9th floor. I was at the Voiddeck and
could hear Tabitha and Harold they all screaming
upstairs very loudly!!! LOL.
After staying at there until around 8.30 and went home with my body sweating and smell bad, cus sweat alot. I went blogging after bathing and saw XiaoRui was posting a post that what she want to said out ! She confessed what she want to say at last! she said '(check out her blog today yourself, too long to type. Go to: http://www.ilovexiaorui.blogspot.com)' I felt so proud of her.
Not because she scolded the person, but she at last have the
courage to do what she want to say. As she never say anything that
disagree us, things she want to say from her bottom of her heart,
she dont dare to say out just scared we would hate her.
So, today, she said out! She take a step out to do what
she really want :D
XiaoRui, Well Done! I will support u, the light of success for your
own courage have been brighten! XiaoRui, do what
ever you want and we will agree with it. We wont hate you,
and ofcourse, also say whatevayou want to say and we wont
blame you too.
I feeling delighted but frustrated about the person.
We suspect is Rena, but also, we hope she can really say
out the truth. But theres something i am goin to tell u Rena, sometimes, when u thought that something
not good done or problems occur, u will never
failed to think that i am the mastermind. And hope you dont go into the conclusion when you dont
really know whats goin on.
Sometimes this type of things will make others Du Lan.
Nights. I will end here. Goin back to video call with Tabitha :D Byebye!
What tthe TOOT! Thursday, September 18, 2008 10:48 PM
Today. theres an idiotic fcuker came to the blog
i sharing with MY-TEX and scolded us
'fk off las, bunch of idiots!'
Dont think we never suspect who the person are.
The person who called him/herself Anoyed. Watch out.
Cross road better cross carefully. Will get bang one.
Hais, someone jus scold other without knowing that
she have no rights to scold.. Only knoe how to act cute,
and insulting others with words she dont even know the
true meaning. Sucks sia, only make me *PUKE*
Not only about that idiot, the libarian today told me that
i didnt return a book that i never even borrow it before.
I explain to her i never borrow before but she keep
saying that the book is under my name.. And told me
to return the payment for the book, $17.90, or i will not get
my End Year Exam results after my exams finished. Then,
if she found the book she will return me money.
I am not the only victim, EnNing have the same
problems that time too. She was made to pay
for the book she never borrow before also. But in the end,
the book was found. I wonder if i am so lucky this time.
Lets stop talk about it, its irritating to remember.
HAHA! Today was so fun in XiaoRui's house. Actually wanna
to study at her house and do homework. but forgett to bring
back. But even if i bring we wont do also:D
We went to youtube look out for different videos.
And she went to a website called 'Metoto', we were listening to people
singing in the game. Althought i have no rights to say others,
but as a outsiders point of view, they we sometime awful.
I stayed at her house for dinner. The Fried Rice her aunty
cook was nice so as the soup.
Today was also the first time i use a webcam too!
Natasha invited xiaorui and me to webcam when i was beside
her. And i went to disturbed her as i took the magazines with
sexy ladies then put in infront of the webcam.So funny when Natasha was screaming and making funny faces.
Then, Tabitha join us beside Natasha while eating. Funny lors.
And we keep laughing throughout the conversation. I went home at 9.30. WT.. Damn unlucky. Walking half way
and the side of my left shoe drop off half way.
Very uncomfortable and worried that the shoe would come off.
As the more i walk the more it was dropping off. When i reach
the traffic near my house, a guy on bicycle stared at my shoe.
So EMBARASSING! Reach home at last and took a good bath!
Now was blogging after finishing my art!
Phew!Manage to complete it is COOL!
Haiiyo. Tuesday, September 16, 2008 10:12 PM
Haiiyo.. Today ShaoQuan kanna whack by me,
very hard lors.. den *PIACK* one sound very loud.
Then, dunno why suddenly scared like scared that
i hit too hard then caused him to be injured.
I tried to call him to ask pain anot, but he think
he is deaf that pretent that he never
heard i calling him. Pissed me off.
My concern like all went to drain.Then i scared
later he will beat me like siao, since he so
violence... But sorry for him because i dont
intention to hit him so hard. But i know is pain
cus i hit him and eveyone suddely stared at him.
Hais... Today oral is.. How do i phrase it.
When reading the passage, it was baad..
I wonder how i score, well or bad.
I read the word COSTUME to CUSTOM,
Actually: costume jewellery
I read: custom, custom, arr, costume jelewery.
OMG! so embarrasing.. i even read de custom 2 times out..
And through out the passage i have mispronounce the words!
At last when we reach the conversation part.. I think i done
well as i say out all the things i wanna say from my thoughts.
Hmm,m, like i told Mr Lim that i want to earn alot of money
when he ask what is my acheive. He ask me what i wanna do if i have
alot of money, and i told him words deeply from my heart that
i can buy all the things i want, and i can even
explore the world as it is my dream.
As having a conversation with him, i felt more
comfortable and start to chat with him like how i chat with my friends.
Then, again he asked how i can earn alot of money, and i told him
that, firstly, i want to study hard, then, after graduate, i will find a
job that at i like, salary doesn't matter, as long as i like the job.
Haha. i just told him how i felt and i realised that i said
blurted out many 'then'... But throught out the conversation he was
smiling at me, and made me felt more relax.
Hope my oral exam can pass, as this time the
oral is special to me as i said all the thing
truely and real that i said from my heart.
When the oral ends, it was like a huge stone
bursted out from my body. No more burdens,
no more worries! And allowed me enjoy my day with [MY T-REX]
Time was passing fast today, and it was ticking fast that it
reaches 5pm when everyone have to go home.
But Tabitha and me went to playground and chat. She teach me a song!
The song go like this:
With love in the vessel we will smile at a storm,
smile at a storm, smile at a storm.
With love in the vessel we will smile at a storm, as we go sailing home!
Sailling, sailling home, Sailling, sailing home. With love in the vessel
wemwoill smile at a storm. As we go sailling home!
With love in the vessel we will smile at a storm, as we go sailling home!
It was fun, the song is cute too! HaHa.
Gonna watch TV, YingXiu
Happy Moments; 10:12 PM
Hmmm, to do some intro, this is my second blog after i deleted my previous one. I have a
group with my besties called [MY T-REX] with : MooXin, YingXiu(me), Tabitha, Rena, EnNing, XiaoRui.
Is Blurred, but hope u dont mind.
Yesterday in Scoopz was damn fun!We dance within ourself ,me, XiaoRui and Moo together,and took video. Haha, but sad to say that En Ning and Tabitha cant join us as En Ning was accompanying Renawhile Tabitha was having her CCA. Then, we took many many photos too.
Scoopz was truly a good place to us as there is MeiLing there too, but sad to know that they are closing down soon due to bad busniness rate :( But anywhere will be fine, places with MYTREX will be fun, filled with laughters. Therefore, to me, they are important than any other things. Happy moments with them are just like clock was ticking every single moments, seconds. Uncountable happiness and bless were benefited on me to have friends like them. Sharing this smiles together are just little happiness to each of us.
Okkayys, my writing end here. Hope tomorrow is a fine day, yingxiu :D
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